Showing posts from June, 2013

Show #78

Had a 10-day hiatus. Bad, bad. Stupid things like video games are cutting into my life and taking over.

I feel like I'm gaining more confidence lately though. Maybe I've been lucky with good open mics but I just feel more solid, more fun, more enthusiastic.

Can't believe it's been one entire year since I committed myself to stand-up comedy.
My material has  evolved a lot since then. I look forward to evolving more in the future.

I know I can do it.
I'm 24-years old going on 25 and still feel like a kid. But I guess that's good, because I'm excited everyday. Blessed everyday to get up every morning and do what I love.

If this is the hardest thing I have to endure in my day, I'm living a pretty good life.

7 day-hiatus

Not sure what happened after such a productive week. I skipped like 7 days in a row this week and feel terrible now.

I'm taking it too easy on myself. Yeah, being comfortable at home just chillaxing and playing video games and watching movies is going to be always preferable to getting up on stage and facing that fear of rejection everyday and fighting to get better. Open mics are scary. Open mics are hard. Open mics sometimes suck because of the people, tension, competitiveness, weird cliques, weird situations like white males throwing out distasteful Asian jokes ...

But when you do well, when your set hits, it becomes magical. You remember that set forever. You feel powerful, hopeful. You feel great.

Maybe I should reward myself differently. Every time I bring myself to an open mic, I should reward myself a lot when I come back home. I need to rewire my brain. Discard old habits. Implement better ones.

Comedy, just like any other discipline, is just a battle against yourself. Ot…

Show #76 Rewarded for hard-work

Inertia is the enemy.
Laziness is the enemy.
Lack of motivation is the enemy.

Ultimately, stand-up is not a competition against other comics. No matter how much you try to bring them down, there's not a lot you can do. Only thing you do have control over, is to work on yourself. Like everything else, it's ultimately a battle with yourself.

Feeling tired, lazy, just wanting to chillax at home, I wanted to skip on my show today.
But then I looked at how many I've done already this week, how much I've learned ... etc ... and how good I would feel if I went ... in these crucial moments of decision, you gotta do the right thing.

So I went. And it was one of the best shows I had in the week.

Diligence is the mother of good luck.

Show #73-#75 Anger then Victory

Open mics may seem insignificant to outsiders. When I tell outsiders (or sane normal society people outside of comedy) that I am doing open mics right now, they seem disappointed that I'm not filling up clubs with live audiences somewhere during my first year of comedy. But all the greats like Pryor, Carlin, Seinfeld, DeGeneres, Rock, Louis C.K and Gaffigan suffered through open mics for at least 3, 4 years before they got big. It is the rite of passage.

Russell Peters said "every little mic is just one more fight you need to fight to get to the title". He is exactly right. I learned so much in these few mics I had yesterday and today. I learned a lot about Anger. How I should tame it.
The reason why I was pissed yesterday is some white guy made a distasteful Asian dick joke in my face. I was one of 6 comics left in a late-night mic on Wednesday night. I was listening very respectfully to this white guy's set and sitting right in the front of the room. All of a sudden …

Chris Rock worked at Red Lobster on Queens Blvd

I moved to Elmhurst, Queens recently.
Had no idea just 5 minute walk from my place, that's the Red Lobster where Chris Rock used to work.

Coincidence? Really? The hero, one of the biggest idols that I look up to, and his life story unfolded just minutes from where I just happened to move to completely by accident?

Seeing that Red Lobster building makes me smile every morning now.

Show #72-#73 Adrenaline but tired now

I'm tired.
I had a pretty big confrontation tonight.

I will talk about it more later.
I'm so spent.

Zach Galifianakis's joke

I saw a clip of Zach G doing stand-up back in 1999 when he was 30 years old.

His opening joke was exactly the same format as one of my jokes I did last month.
Exact same sentence structure.
Exact same topic.
Exact same length.
Exact same intonation.
Exact same hit.
By the way, my tag was better.

I must be doing something right.

After awhile, you stop believing in coincidences.

Show #69 Feeling stale

I make myself feel better by looking at how much I've improved over this one year and the good sets I had.

But sometimes, I get so tired. How much longer is there to go? 
I know I haven't even done much ... didn't even hit 70 shows yet but just to come this far, it was so long.  I need to take more action. Maybe I'm thinking too much and not taking enough action ...  70 shows ... if I was really serious, I could have done 70 shows in less than 3 months. But it stretched and stretched until it took me an entire year to do those 70 shows. Of course, there were struggles in job-searching and finding a place to live and etc ... but ... 70 shows is like 6 shows a month. That's like 1.5 open mics a week. Man ... that's weak, bro. I should be hitting at least 4 to 5 open mics a week. that's 16 to 20 open mics a month and 192 to 240 shows a year. I should be at that level. I should be.
Self-discipline is the problem. Self-management is the problem. 
My peers have it nice…
The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is their power to harm us. By : Voltaire
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Show #68

Some lessons over the past few weeks

1) Every second not spent on thinking about my passion is a second wasted. Especially if you are thinking about futile things like regretting the past, worrying about the future, ruminating over your mistakes, hating others, being jealous of others, etc.

2) I need to flower the other plants in my life if I want to have a successful life. I cannot just solely obsess over stand-up comedy while deserting everything else. These other plants include:

FriendshipsPhysical FitnessFinancialsSelf-Reward3) I need to motivate myself to take action if I want to lead a great life. Whether it be working out consistently, going out to open mics every single night or doing successfully at work, I need to take action. I didn't make enough progress in stand-up comedy last year because I was so scared, demotivated to go out and take action. But whenever I took a ton of action, I was able to achieve great results. That's what I need.
I am only 24. I have my entire …
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Show #67

Yahhhh 2/3 done until 100 mics!!!!
66% hurdle!! I did a good set today.I realized something important today. I have been neglecting many important things in my life, especially my friends.If I want to succeed in stand up, what good would it do if I neglect all my friends while doing it? Nobody will be happy even if I end up on top. What a life would that be? Paulo Coelho says in the Alchemist,The secret to happiness is appreciating life around you while never taking your eyes off the prize.I think I've cared only about the prize for so long. God wants me to learn many things in this journey before I get anywhere.
And I'm glad he reminded me again.Thank you, God. I won't forget about my precious friends ever again. And I will try hard to meet more people and be social. Reach out and try new things. I won't be self-absorbed all the time avoiding social occasions or forgetting to keep in touch with others. Yes, there's sacrifices you need to make but friendships I real…